Yeah, back to blogging, but not for long. I have another place I could rant on, and it's much more private. Haha, yes. PATH. I love the 'Make it Private' option. It might seem like I'm not talking about my problems, but in actual fact, only I know.
This few days hasn't been good for me. I've made a terrible mistake last week due to my anger. Regret it loads, seriously. I broke a door, injured my father, screamed at my brother. I injured myself a fair bit too, but I deserved it. What kind of person am I? I've been asking myself. I'm nothing but a burden and a disappointment. :/
After that, I was really troubled. Thinking of death and what not. What made me guilty is that my family accepted me back without blaming me. AHH, I dunno how to live on. I'm trying my best to improve myself to pay them back. Sorry and thanks.
Haiix. Another problem. I disappointed a person who's really dear to me. This is the worst it can get. :(. I really hate it when I disappoint someone who I really care, but what has happened alr happened. I can't change things. That makes me more helpless. AHH SHIT.
Trying my best to change things now. I really dunno if this is gonna change anything, but I'm really trying. It'll really be painful if it doesn't, and you give up and move on. But well, I respect your decision if that happens. Meanwhile, I'll just suffer in silence. :)
Well, just ranting. Maybe I should stop here. Others should go on Path. HAHA, alright. Bye guys.
P.S. do listen to "Better than I know myself." It's my blog song, btw. It's really relatable to me. ;)
God, help me thru. I'm helpless, broken, guilty and disappointed. :/
Masquerade-ing.
Yours Truly
Malcolm Lim 07Aug95
Loves: GOD. You Guys.
Hates: the devil.
Wants
Good vocals
Guitar
Drum
Go out MORE with friends
Long hair?