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Sunday, May 13, 2012

*Love. It isn't that easy.*

Hey guys.

Back after bout a month. It's about 6:02 in the morning right now. Well, it isn't necessary to update all the time, so. WHO CARES?

Haha. anyways. Life has been like a roller coaster this year. Ups and downs, of course happiness and sadness. But something happened not long ago, and I'm still in the state of shock even up till now.

Dun get me wrong, it isn't something bad. Well, yeah. I guess I'm in love right now. :p. It isn't easy to be saying this, so dun poke fun at me, okay. Haha. :). But yeah. Something good about it, is that somehow, I suddenly forgot about my pains this past few months. I just kept dwelling on that day. Hmmm...

So, yeapp. Being in love is one thing. It's the aftermath that I'm always afraid of. Whether this feeling could go on between two parties depend on what we do in the aftermath. Now that's the problem.

The reason why I'm afraid of the aftermath, is because, now that I know, I have this, the more I'm afraid of losing it. As a result, of course, I would do whatever I can to keep it. But I'm so afraid the way I'll be doing it will be so annoying and irritating, that's when the other party will let go. And that's one nightmare that I hope won't happen.

Call me insecure, but I'm this way no matter what. I guess I just need someone I can really rely on, and I can put my 100% trust in. Someone who can tolerate me cos I'm jealous ALWAYS. Someone who can teach me trust, and who can trust in me. I think I've found the person, and I hope God proves me right. :)

Alright. It's kinda late though. I'm just ranting anyways.

See ya. ;)

Please God. Help me not to screw things up, and when I do, help the other party to understand my motive.


Masquerade-ing.